So, I'm in Croatia.

So, I'm in Croatia. 

CRAZY!

My life feels so strange right now. But the way I can explain the season I am in, is with a conversation with Camomile, almost two weeks ago.

We were on our way to Shoreditch in London. I was using the satnav on my phone to get there and Camomile was also using my phone to aux our music.

She took the phone to add to the playlist and said,

'I don't know how you know where you're going, you can't see the map'.

My response was,

'I don't need to see the map. I just listen for the next instruction'

Then I said,

'Woah, that's a Word right there!'

The whole month of January, I had been thinking about what it means to have faith. We know that faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1). It is trusting and believing in what you don't see. Which is a lot easier said than done! But it is foundational to our walk with God. 

I resigned from my job in 2019 and have had some pretty big questions about my life and purpose. Early on, I made the conscious decision to have faith. It would have been so easy for me to slip into worry and doubt. Being unemployed, especially when a lot of your friends are employed, is difficult! I decided to learn a new skill (baking), focus on serving others and on being a good steward of what God has made me responsible for. I also took myself off social media, I didn't think it was useful for my journey and for where I was at that time. I felt happy, content and peaceful. 

Then, BOOM! I got an email about volunteering in Croatia! It came at the perfect time. Volunteering abroad is something I had always wanted to do and my parents and pastors were supportive of the opportunity. I felt peace about my decision to go, so I said yes! Now here I am. I've learnt a lot in the week I have been here. But that's for another blog post lol.

To be honest with you, I don't have a plan. I have ideas of what I would like to do. But a solid plan? Lol, nope. 

Whilst I may not know a lot, I know what the Word of God says.

1. That GOD has a plan for me. A good one at that. (Jeremiah 29:11)

2. That he KNOWS me. And if He knows me (better than I know myself, might I add), then His plans are perfect for me, right? It makes sense. (Psalm 139:1-6)

3. That His Word is a LAMP unto my path. (Psalm 119:105)

4. That my MANDATE is to preach the gospel. The Great Commission implores me to spread the GOOD NEWS. (Matthew 28:18-20)

5. That I am an ambassador of Christ. No matter where I go, no matter who I meet, no matter my career and profession, I REPRESENT CHRIST.(2 Corinthians 5:20)

6. That my purpose is to glorify God, in all that I do! (1 Peter 4:11)

And above all, to live a life of worship!

I can't see Gods map for my life. I don't know what He has planned for me and when. But, I am learning to hear His voice. I am learning to wait for His instruction. I am learning to look for GOD opportunities. I am learning to delight in His ways, and as I do so, my desires for my life are becoming more inline with His will. And that's the best place to be in, because ONLY THEN, will God grant me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4).

I encourage you to lean on God, for everything! Choose not to worry, but to have faith. Choose to be faithful. Choose to delight in your portion and to manage what God has given you well. Choose to spend time with God, not because He needs it, but because YOU need it.

And always remember, all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose! (Romans 8:28).

Until next time,

T x

Better late than never!

You don’t know what you’re doing? No worries, no one else does either.

Anyone else feel the intense pressure as a twenty-something year old, to have your life together? Yeah same.

Cant lie, I definitely feel like this pressure is only made worse by the doom and gloom stats thrown our way. Our standard of living is rising. The chances of us being homeowners are slim to none. Social media is ruining our generation. We will probably never repay our student loans. And it is under these circumstances that we must travel and live our best life and save money because life is still tight.

Sigh.

The pressure is immense. Pressure to be ‘making-moves’, pressure to appease our parents and make it look like we’re not as jobless as we may look and / or feel. Basically, what I’m trying to say is, according to society, being 20-something at this point in time, is all long. Which it is, to an extent. However, recently, I have personally become more determined to write my own narrative. Stay with me.

I’m almost 21 and in all honesty, I still have no idea what I want to do. I just have vague ideas about the sorts of careers and projects I’d like to venture in to. So I’m not completely clueless, however, sometimes I just feel like, why can’t I be like Alesha who knows that she wants to be an investment banker in central London with a salary of 100K a year? I envy people with that kind of certainty because they can focus their efforts better and work towards something solid. That level of certainty is reassuring. It’s the not knowing that personally drives me crazy.

If you also, are plagued with thoughts comparing yourself to your seemingly more ‘accomplished’ agemates, let’s just not. At the end of the day, I am not Alesha, and Alesha is not I. The trajectory of our lives are completely different, so why waste time staring at her lawn when I could be watering mine? Basically, we’re all on our own journey’s here, and we should OWN IT.

You don’t have to have your life together. You don’t have to know your end destination. You’re only job is to work on you. Take every opportunity afforded to you and make the most of it. Learn from every experience and make the effort to take yourself outside your comfort zone. Live life on purpose. Focus on the things that you’re passionate about and that stir something in you. Just because you haven’t decided what you want to do, does not mean you have to behave like a bum! 

I wont lie, this was mostly a pep talk for myself, but I figured I can’t be the only that feels like this sometimes. Ah, you don’t know what you’re doing? Don’t worry, no one else does either. Just walk by faith, choosing to believe that your story is a good one. Stay determined to experience everything beautiful about life. By the time you get where your meant to be, you’ll look up and realise just how epic your journey has been.

You don’t know what you’re doing? All good. You don’t really need to.

Jeremiah 29:11

P.s. I wrote this over a year ago and I'm just coming across this now. I have no idea why I didn't publish it earlier!! Im posting this anyway, it could be useful. Could😂